I have experienced this several times in my life. At first, I wasn’t sure what I had experienced. (Maybe, even now, I am not sure.) All I Know is that suddenly I am in a new stage of life with a somewhat new me. I begin to feel that life is like a hop-on-hop-off train tour (I prefer train ride ;-). The only thing different is that we don’t decide when to hop on and when to hop off. It’s more like when we are sleeping, someone’s managed to throw us off the train or carry us back on… and then we continue our journey and arrive at our next destination (stage of life).
I haven’t blogged for many days. First, I attended a family reunion at Chesapeake Bay at the end of July. It was one of the best: the weather was excellent (not crazily hot like every other year), and everyone was relaxed and having fun. When I came back, I was anxious to blog about it. Other than Mother Nature, I credited this best family reunion to my sister’s great planning and organizing. I wanted to share with you why I think this family reunion succeeded.
But we have taken many good family photos. I wanted to make a photobook, my very first one. I chose to focus on making the photobook instead of blogging. I knew the only way I would be able to complete a photobook was to give it 100% of my time.
It took less than a week to get the book done. I had 2 days before my daughter’s home visit. Now I was anxious to blog not only about my family reunion, but also the process of making my photobook.
To my surprise, even though I had a strong desire to blog, I chose to rest instead. I didn’t quite understand my decision, but I was comfortable with it.
My daughter was home for a week. Two days after she left, we were on our way to Alaska.
After the Alaska cruise, we visited my niece and nephew in Seattle (my nephew’s family came to Seattle too). Then I was sick. I took time to recover from the cold.
It was in the middle of recovering from the cold, I suddenly realized that I was no longer the same me as before. It was clear to me that living-my-life has become the only important thing in my mind. I mean being aware of every moment and treasure it, pay attention to each breath and each step I take… all those simple things in life. It’s ok that if I don’t write another word; it’s ok that I don’t take another photo; it’s ok that I don’t blog… I want to live consciously (is that the right way to say it?) and not in an auto-pilot mode to live my life.
What does this mean to my blog? It means that I probably won’t post as often as before, but when I post, it is more from my heart than just because I think it is time to post 😉 I will continue reading everyone’s blog, but I probably will comment less. If I see other people already made a comment that I want to make, I will “like” that comment to show “I agree.”
And I will continue writing and photographing, but only after I sleep, eat, rest, and maybe exercise 😉
So nice to be back! Thanks for visiting my blog.