Thanks for all the good wishes for my trip. When Cee said, “Just have fun and relax. Don’t make it complicated”, I didn’t quite get it. But when Lignum said, “Just relax, and have fun. Otherwise, it is not worth it” I felt like someone had hit my head with a 2 by 4. He was right (Cee, too). I read Lignum’s message when I was in Minneapolis airport, and almost wished that I didn’t bring my camera along. But by then, I had taken several photos already and here I will share one of them with you.
We got back on Nov. 11, after spending 26 hours flying and waiting at airports. When I was in Taiwan, other than the friends I always visit when I go back, I met 9 people whom I haven’t seen or talked to for 40 years. Arriving home, I was physically and emotionally exhausted.
It turned out bringing a camera was a good thing. I found out that hiding behind the viewfinder provided me a little time to rest (mentally). The day before I came back, I purposely went to the market doing some street photographing, hoping it would help me to readjust my life back home.
The day after I came home, Nov. 12, is my daughter’s birthday. It is also the day my sister Karin passed away (a year ago). I relived the moment welcoming my daughter to the world. I still remember the joy of hearing her first cry. I also spent time thinking of my sister, how much I’ve missed her. The happiness and sadness came from two different channels. They didn’t seem interfere each other, but again, I was exhausted. Now I wasn’t even sure it was exhaustion or depression. They seemed carrying similar attributes. (Thanks Lois for welcoming me back. I wanted to post something, but I was mentally busy 😉
I am leaving again tomorrow to visit my nephew, who has a new baby in Oct. My grandnephew, that is! I am sure I will bring my camera this time 😉
I want to end this post with 3 photos. I am not a landscape photographer. Someone once said, “There are many great landscape photographers around. They took better landscape photos than I do, so I don’t have to become one.” I am totally with her. So, I am not sharing these photos with you because they are great photos. What I want to share is my experience: When I stood in front of those mountains, when I walked in the woods, I became a part of this universe and was no longer Helen Chen. I was trouble free and content. I am sure many of you would understand what I mean when I say: I was bigger than me in those moments and felt great.
The last photo comes with a question: would you get rid of those light circles (reflection from the lens, right?) or leave them there?
Thank you all!